The Experiment

I stare listlessly at my blank computer screen, I check Outlook my inbox is empty. In the background I can hear the dull buzz from the servers that are noisily humming along I've gotten so used to it that I don't even hear it unless someone happens to complain about the noise. It is cool in here in this dark office of mine, the lights are off to prevent screen glare. I smile bemusedly to myself and wonder what it is that is so important for me to see on my screen. I scratch my arm I think I may be allergic to something in these wooden desks my forearms always itch where my arms rest on the desk. I take a large gulp from my orange Camelbak waterbottle, I'm glad that I have such nice friends. Kristin gave that bottle to me on my last birthday. Hmmm my birthday is coming up in two days, its odd but I don't really feel older I have a feeling that Sunday will be just like any other day. I think I'm going to do something with some of the other SM's on Sunday for my birthday. Mostly because I think they are just as sick of being stuck in as I am and any excuse to get out is jumped at gladly. The bell rings I wonder what period it is now. I glance at the clock on my computer 10:59 squinting at the schedule on the wall I drive that it is 4th period. I scratch my head and wonder why I didn't bring my laptop today. Ah it was because I was hoping that if I didn't bring my laptop I would have something to do instead of just staring at the internet and not being able to think of anything like I normally do. No luck still nothing to do I'm just staring at the internet on a PC instead ugh Explorer I grimace. I yawn and look outside it seems nice outside today its overcast but it wasn't to cold when I walked over this morning I had to roll up my sleeves anyways. I look around the room everything is in order already and I still have two hours to sit here. Hopefully I'll find something to do after I get off work at 1 well I know I'll have lunch and I need to do my laundry but after that who knows perhaps I'll go for a walk but I'm awful sick of going for walks by myself. I'd ask my roommate but he is to lazy to move from his bed. I miss Joel its nice having a roommate that wants to get out and do things. Also a clean roommate ah I wonder if Joel will read this and wonder what planet I'm from but yes Joel if you do read this your room is at its worst cleaner than the best my roommate has ever achieved. I sigh and think only two more weeks I can't wait to get back I'm tired of wasting my life here. I need something to occupy my time, I need goals, I need purpose, I need friends, I just need to be busy again. I frown and scowl at my calender. The last week is break and I won't have to work anyways perhaps I'll find something to do I say to myself. I look at my water bottle and it is almost empty. I get up to go and refill it.........